DearShortie,
Look,Idon’tknowwheretostart.Iloveyou.IhavelovedyousinceaslongasIcanremember,Shortie.IguessthefirsttimeItoldwaswhenIrealizedhowmuchyoumeanttome.Wehaveknowneachotherforyears.Oncewegottogether,Icouldn’tbelievehowgoodthingsweregoing.Itwastoogoodtobetrue.Itwasperfectinthebeginning.Ilovedyou,andyoulovedme.Ifeltlikethat’sthewayitshouldstillbe.
Ididn’twantyoutoleave-honestly,Ididn’t.IfIcouldgoback,I’dbegyoutostaybymyside.Toknowyou’dbemilesawaywasbreakingmyheart,butIwantedyoutobehappy.Iwantedyoutomakeagoodfutureforyourself,forus.NowthatIthinkaboutit,howcouldIhaveletyougo?WhatwasIthinkingthen?Lookwhathashappened.
Iknowwe’vebeenthroughthetoughestoftimes.AndbecauseofthatIthinkwearestrongerthanwethought.Welastedagoodwhile.I’msoincrediblysorryforeverythingthatIdidwrong.Iwishyoucouldjusttellme,andIwouldchangeitall.But,youknowthatneitherofuswereinnocentwhenitcametohurtingeachother.
WhenIsaidIwouldmarryyou,Imeantit.Iwantedtolivemyentirelifelovingyou.Wecouldhavegrownoldtogether.Iknowyouwantedthat.Itwouldhavebeengreat.Butwhathappenedtous,Shortie?Wheredidwegowrong?Wasn’tourloveuntouchable?Wasn’titstrong?Isitandthink,andtheonlythingthatbestexplainsitisthatweneededtobetogetherphysically.Havingyouinonestateandmeinanotherwasunbearable.Although,Iwantedtobewithyousobadly,Ialsohaveschoolandmylifehere.IfIcouldgobackI’dprobablyleavewithyouwhenIhadthechance.Wouldthingsbebetternoworisthisthewayitissupposedtobe?
AllIknowiswemaynotbetogethernowormaybenoteveragain.ButIwantyoutoknowthatyouaresomeoneIwillnevereverforget.Ilovedyou,andstilllove,andwillalwaysloveyou,nomatterwhat.We’vebeenthroughalot.Butthatloveisstillthere.Ihopeyoufindhappiness.Ihopeallyourdreamscometrue.Youdeservealot.
Ifeelveryluckytohavehadthechancetoexperiencetheloveweoncehad.It’ssomethingIwillforevercherish.Pleasedon’tforgetit.Iknowthingsaren’tthebestnow,butatleastwestillhaveourfriendship.That’swhereitallstarted.Ijustaskforonething;behappy,andknowthatI’mhappy.Iwillalwaysthinkofyou.
Lovealways,
LuckyAngel