to: eddie ~ from: ‘shone
dear eddie,
so much is on my mind i don’t know where to start though. eddie, to be honest with you, i really think we’re losing love. things don’t seem the same anymore. eddie, i really love you and want to be with you but this is not how.
the first time we supposedly broke up, you were telling me you wanted me back and you loved me – and it seemed like it was true, but now i don’t know where our relationship stands. i’m feeling really confused; i don’t know if i’m your girlfriend or just someone you can have sex with. i need answers right about now.
what happened to you coming over here after work, you calling me on your lunch break, you telling me you love me, and you calling me when you got off work? i really miss that and want it to go back and be that way again.
i really wanted to tell you that when i was at the game and you saw me there. you know what hurt the most is that you didn’t even come by me to say, "hey," or give me a kiss, hug … anything, and i’m supposed to be your girlfriend. when do you plan on showing it? and another thing … so, that’s how it is when you’re around your boys; i’m just another girl in your little black book huh? eddie, that really hurt to know that my own boyfriend – the one who supposedly loves me, can’t come and say hey or something, but when you’re not with your friends and it’s just you and me, it’s another story … but i know what i have to do.
i’m just gong to have to leave you alone once and for all. i don’t want to do it but i want things the way they used to be and it looks like that won’t happen. i love you, eddie, and obviously your love isn’t as strong as you say it is.
well, i love you, eddie, and always will. i love you, baby.
love always,
rashone